Make Love in the Middle of a Warzone

[Pyrite]

but when you don't get this and you already have low self-esteem..... train wreck.

Do you mean don't get it in terms of not knowing? I do hope so. Why? Because no one gives this to you to get, it is something you build for yourself with your own thoughts and emotions.

I really have to sleep but I am confused by this. 5am here.

I was meaning that in my M it got to a point where I didn't feel "wanted" by my W. Not that it matters in this particular context, but at a later point she confirmed that.