Thank you so much for your reply, I really appreciate it.
You are right, all I can do is work on myself no matter how much this situation hurts. We spoke after I have put my dog down as he sent a text and asked if he could call, it felt like a good talk, he was very supportive and said that he wanted us to be friends and stay in touch. I thanked him for his support, and said that I would like that.
This hurts like hell, and I have decided to try to focus on my half marathon coming up next weekend and try to detach from all of this a little bit.
He has said that he might come along when I run, (he said that last weekend) but I haven't asked and won't do that so it's up to him to bring it up now.
I will try to do the NC thing, and hopes that he feels a void.
Thanks again for your reply! You are so right, we'll be better people in the process and that is certainly something!
Hug!
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5