Old dog seeks new trick 13

[Old Dog]

Now you see I have trouble with all this higher power stuff.

I am an atheist, so god is out of the question straight away and I also struggle with the thought of some 'universal' or inner power.

It is my belief that you are on your own. There is no higher power, it is just you. If you give yourself over to some sort of inner higher power, then that may work, and has indeed been a life saver for many, but you are just following a set of rules such as the 12 steps.

I do have power and I can exercise that power or relinquish it consciously or unconsciously, but it's mine and in alone not some magical mystical ethereal entity.

Anyway, I'm at the kids house now. I don't call this home any longer I hate being here. I've got to sleep in the same bed as she does during the week and I really don't want to, but there is no other bedroom.

I think I may remove all of my remaining clothing when I go back to the flat - and that's not home either. All bar my wedding suit and a leather jacket which she bought me on my birthday a couple of years ago. I can't see me wearing either of those again.