Zephr - I'll look into some of those books. I did get too attached to her for everything. I was extremely self confident and that dissolved over time. I need to take it back.
Good luck with the meditation - I think you'll find it peaceful and relaxing!
M-33 W-33 S-11, S-8 M-11, T-14 BD - 12/26, Divorce Filing and admits to affair (her) 4/18 I moved out 5/23