Lemme just remind you sumthin'... (because I do this too.... shush, uR )
GO EASY ON YOURSELF WITH THE ACCEPTANCE. (I wasn't yelling...simply emphasizing.)
Make the list of what you can and can't control, and sort it out. But accepting??
That takes a long time. A really...really....really...really....well, you get it.
That will happen when it does. And it probably will never quite be 100%, either. The important thing is the baby steps in that direction.
Glad you have a shizzy distraction at work! (?) Did I just validate that? Weird. I meant glad you have the skills to handle it. I have zero doubt, you freakin' rockstar.