Oh I think I have either done that .. either at work or I know for sure in the car. Its builds up and its actually good and healthy to release it. Knowing its part of the process and accepting it like you are is key.
I did feel much better after I got out of the office and got home to relax a little. The cry was needed. I'm a pretty emotional dude and I don't think I had shed a tear until then. So it was inevitable.
Yesterday was a good day. Spent all day on the road visiting customers and surprisingly didn't think about the sitch at all during the 10+ hours of driving around.
I'm continuing my DBing, reading up on my self help books (the solo partner), and I'm looking for a kayak to purchase! Trying to keep away from W as much as possible. Just accepting each day as it comes.
I know I can't change her, I can only change myself. I'm about 99% sure the A is still going on in some way or another (mainly email), but I'm not snooping. I catch myself wanting to look and then stop and think; what am I really going to gain by doing this? Then I realize it's just going to ruin my day and I walk away.
I'm keeping a PMA as much as possible, especially at home.
W is still being very pleasant around the house when we are there together, but I keep my distance. I think she feels like she can still get her hooks in me if she tries hard enough. So far, all of her attempts have failed. Or maybe she's just happy I'm not fighting with her and causing drama while she continues her A. Who knows.
I want to walk up to her and say, "hey, I know you're still messing around. You're not very good at hiding it." But I know I shouldn't. Right?
M30 W30 Married: 1 year Together: 4 years No kids 3 Dogs
