I wouldn't say I don't care, but it isn't my focus. She might. It is hard to see her softening from the position she spits at me now that she HAD to get out of our "toxic marriage"(Rewriting history). But who knows.
I think a lot of this is stemming from my "resolution" with the house. I feel that I have some certainty in the future. Its not the future I was (am/will be) running around in pain, admonishing what was taken away from me, BUT it is my real *future*. And I can live with it. I can see myself in the house, with the girls.
One of the "bugs" in this deal is still the re-location issue I have talked about before. I may have to live for a few years in the negotiated re-location area. But I don't see this being a long term thing. When the girls are a bit older, the reality is that the re-location area is on my way to work almost. When they get to high school, well anything could happen by then.
*future* - apart from the above I feel a renewed appreciation for Cadets linked lighthouse story.
Even so, she might want to comeback. She might not. I might be available/interested. I might not. I at least won't be in the spot that I am now.
Apart from bitching about our Ss, logistics, venting, stories etc, I/we/all of us talk about what is wrong with us, what we have to "fix". In the *future* where ^^^ is going to happen, I will be that person. Cadet is right my S has "GIVEN ME THIS GIFT OF TIME", to achieve all of those things and renew my appreciation of life. And in this *future* any of those ^^^ outcomes will be OK.
Now we just have to get there
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
