I appreciate your honesty. I've been reading tons of books, therapy, stop drinking, gone to dr. for my low sex drive, and quit drinking. The 8 months leading up to the BD I was a mess. I now realize I was pushing her away both emotionally and physically. I was going though some depression not knowing how to deal with my ED and drinking way to much. W claims the drinking was never an issue, but I know it was, at least for me. Now I feel I'm out of the rut. I've done more stuff for myself in last month than I have in the last year. I know it might be to late to get wife back, but honestly I still have hope. All I can do is keep doing what I'm doing. It's been 17 weeks of sober hell.
No urge to drink, even when I've been going out on weekend with friends.
As far as the legal stuff, not worried. Already have a lawyer to protect myself.
I been trying to keep the chin up, it's hard but what else can you do but deal with what you've been dealt. It's not all my fault, but I'll take a lot of the blame.
