Zues, I have caught up with what you have written.

It's fantastic to see how far you have come, truly inspirational for me. I can not thank you enough for helping me to 'see' my own negative behaviours through your old posts about what you did in your M.

The posts you made about the deck of cards resonates with me whenever I am dealing with a difficult person. I believe I have become more compassionate and understanding because I am less inclined to deal them low cards, my behaviour and reactions is a lot more 'tempered' :-)

I am grappling with a lot of what you are saying but most of my thoughts usually veer towards H. I think only he will really know what a fantastic W I would be in a new M/ R as he knew me from before and can see the person I have become.

I am still struggling to detach, so no where near where you are but I do have similar thoughts that cross my mind.

Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18
EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13
Move to work abroad Sept 14
re establish contact with OW while away
D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15