The fog is in Sandi2's posts which I think are sticky in this sub board.
I hope you don't think I was being judgemental. What felt right for you was what happened. I just think your H is 'having his cake and eating it' at the moment. I guess you don't know what he's doing when he's not with you, so it just seems wrong he can walk back into your life, take all the good stuff (let's face it sex is good) and then run away saying he doesn't know what he wants.
Going dark is probably easier for you as he's not at home.
If he doesn't come back, it's his loss. You're better than that!
Catch up soon.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015