Where to begin?

[Dawgs]

Thanks, Fogg. I am still around. Things are complicated but we are talking a lot more now and have gone on three dates. She even told me she loved me (no prompt from me) when she went to visit her family this past weekend. She still loves the backrubs and noticed that she moves in closer to where she is actually up against me now. However, I slipped after a silly text convo which made her very angry and I subsequently broke the rules yesterday which led her to become more distant.

If you may recall, she has orders to Jacksonville come this December. We have had several discussions about us as a family all going down there versus her just going and coming back on the weekends and she is considering all of us coming down as a normal family.

But, while she may be "considering" it, she has not said that she would. For now, I still go with the idea of her going alone. She seems so confused and alternates between getting closer and then becoming distant.

All of this leads me to the hardest question of all - how can one tell if a mother doesn't want her kids anymore (when we were dating, she had said that up until us she was against having kids)? Here is why I ask the question - She gets very frustrated and snaps/yells at the kids very easily, although she doesn't have a quick temper. Then there is the whole Jacksonville thing - I can't understand how a loving mother would leave her kids only to see them on the weekend. Are there any signs of a mother who - maybe in some part - doesn't want her kids?