Hi she is not feeling "it" anymore

[Mrrch]

I had learned to be more open with my feelings thru therapy. With the 180 I stopped pursuing, started doing things for myself that I enjoyed,realized that I cannot change her, I am a good person. She has blamed me for her affair which I now realize is not true. Yes I was emotionally unavailable to a point but I see now that our mother's deaths made me shut down a little more to block that pain.