Zephyr, I am so sorry that it was a tough day for you. I just read your post and gave a sarcastic laugh because I wrote something similar on my thread today. It is so hard to just focus on GALing and 180s. We, humans, are staged to seek answers and find solutions. While I tend to see DBing working, it is so VERY hard to not want to know the absolutes.
DBing teaches us to live in the grey a little, to accept uncertainty, and to stride forward despite that. We want black and white. I truly think to be happier in life we have to accept that life is not able to be controlled and the harder we try to control it and make it black or white, the more chaotic it becomes.
Keeping the PMA up is difficult for us all, but I believe eventually (God, I hope so!) it will not be an act and we will be stronger, more stable, and much happier people. It is very true what Cadet says. We have been given the gift of time and should use it. It's just so very hard to do.
I will say an extra prayer for you tonight and keep you in my thoughts.
*hugs*
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