You are amazing. If I can accomplish 1/3 of what you do I will be satisfied. My sister and her 3 sons and one gf are going up too so we should have a lot of fun. I am close to my sister.
I have isolated myself since we got married and didn't even realize it until H left. I have some work to do to build up my self confidence and get myself out into the world. I signed up today for yoga in the park never would have done that before and quite honestly I am nervous to go on my own.
I also joined a book club a month ago and do enjoy that.
I hear what you are saying and believe you are correct now the hard part for me is putting myself out there after 20 years of marriage.
I also re read your earlier post and you asked how I was changing myself so M can be better so that would be to be more confident in myself encourage H to do his thing without trepidation stop asking so many questions about what he is doing and think more about what I am doing. I used to be more silent because that is who I am but for some reason along the way I became this talkative person I think because I felt like if I didn't ask him questions he would think I didn't care.
Traits I am working on will be not to over analyze or think about h or what he says lots of work here needed). Not feeling that I HAVE to talk and realizing that all of this is not all my fault because that is how I have felt. Accepting that h may or may not come back and that is his decision and that once I detach I will be ok and finally I don't need to control only myself which I have been way out of control and didn't realize until I reread 25years posts to me. Thank you
