H came and loaded up all his stuff. I didn't help him at all. There were tears on my part and foolishly I let my mouth run asking him how he could leave me to take care of the house and everything else by myself. I need to buy some duct tape and STFU! Going to have to really work on being able to forgive him for doing this to me. Everytime I work on the house trying to get it ready to sell I get angry with him. He is so selfish and all about him. His new life, his new start, his new business. Argh I want to be with him and have a good marriage and then I think why? Why would I want to be with someone that couldn't put me and our family first? He was unhappy...well welcome to the club. Lots of people are unhappy. You work things through, you work things out. You don't just bail! Having a really rough day today. One of my closest friends from work called me last night. She has been diagnosed with lung cancer. Finds out more on Wednesday. She is scared to death and I am for her as well. Lots of prayers being sent her way from me. Then this morning my mother tells me that my sister-in-law just found out that she is 2 months pregnant. Normally that would be joyous news, however she is an alcoholic and the doctors have suggested that she abort the baby because she had been drinking so heavily for the past few months. Maybe this will convince her to get the help that she needs. So sad!
I'm going to guided meditation tonight to try to clear my head a bit from all this trauma.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
