I feel very lucky today that everyone has given me such good advice that I will put to good use. I think I already feel a little stronger from reading the posts everyone has put here.
I am going to mow my yard today, take 25years advice and take a walk with my S and have a glass of wine.
I do have to say that the days where H is working and I don't see him are easier for me then the days H comes to my house and I have to see him. That is when I start obsessing so I need to figure out how to handle that. Any suggestions?