Thanks everyone. Yes I am working with a counselor. Also made an appointment with my nurse practitioner for today to see about upping my anxiety meds.
I think the realization if what is happening is starting to set in. My W has said that she will think about reconsidering and giving me a second chance. But I'm not holding out hope for that.
I'm just so devastated. I never wanted to leave our house. I don't want a divorce. I know that things don't have to be this way. My kids keep asking when I'm coming home. It was only supposed to be three months. Been 6. And if you look back a bit in this thread you can see what I found my W hiding from me and what she said to me yesterday.
I spoke with her today and I want it to be the last time I say anything about us and just wait for her decision.
I simply apologized for the pain I caused her and for not being there for her and the kids. But that isn't the way it is now and will not be that way going forward. And I thanked her for taking time to think about reconsidering and expressed appreciation for that.
