Feeling so hopeless

[Lucy105]

Thank you all. Your kindness means a lot. I have already pulled back, and refuse to have any contact with him. He will either sink or swim on his own.

I know I focus on her, in my mind, I'm still trying to justify things, but truth be told, I know it's not about her, or me for that matter. The hope that he will come out of this is still there, I honestly don't want him to lose the business, but that is only his choice right now, I will not help him to keep it.

I have consulted a lawyer, but was not left with a good feeling. She said that he only has to give financial support based off of what he's making at the restaurant, which isn't much. It pays the bills, but neither of us were yet drawing a salary because it was still a fairly new business, and still in the growing process. Now, it may never reach its full potential.....or maybe it already did, I don't know, nor at this point do I care. She said it would take at least $5,000 for an accountant to do a overview of the business to see where things stand. Neither of us can afford that, and honestly, he can't afford the bills he already has..

He made a sizable deposit into the business acct yesterday because of the Mother's Day buffet, which is typically a very busy day for the restaurant. He deposited $250 into my account. I have not seen a paycheck come through for her, so he is giving her cash I'm sure, but I have no way to prove how much if he's taking from the funds before he deposits.

Also, our state is pretty lenient as far as divorce goes. It doesn't matter that he's had an affair. For his other divorces, he basically did the DIY per work, and filed that way. I still have hope that he remembers the lessons he learned the second time around, which he may, in time.