Trying to Follow DB & DR (3)

[Miman2]

"Is she living with the OC?"

I don't think so, although the thought did occur to me. The oc lived 5 hours away from us. I didn't see the ow so I assume she was at work or with their kids. I don't remember seeing the W's car anywhere around, and the om was there around 5pm.

So he either is now working in the area and living with the W or he got out of work early and came to pick her up to take her back to where they live.

"She reacted from a position of fear. You came barging up to the car and demanded answers. She was afraid and embarrassed. "

That thought went through my head too.

1) She was caught spending time with the OM and probably felt embarrassed/angry because of it.
2) I now know where she lives and showed up there. She probably felt a bit intruded upon (a lot like how I felt when I found out she was sneaking in to my apt. and taking things).

Right now I'm a place where I'm mourning the loss of our marriage/relationship and miss the companionship.

If she showed up this very instant and said lets work on things, I might be willing to do so. If she did that several years from now I'd have to see where I am in life at that moment to make a decision either way.

I still hope and pray for a reconciliation but I'm not holding my breath waiting for one. I feel like I'm in a place of acceptance. This is not what I asked for but this is the reality of the situation I'm in.

I know I still have a lot of work to do on myself. So that's what I'm focusing on. I'm going to CoDA groups, seeing the IC, going to church, reading the books, and fitting in the fun GAL activities that I can as they come up.

Out of town for an interview tomorrow and back on Thursday. I have an appointment Friday with the less aggressive L to see what she thinks about the papers I got. Until then, I'm taking care of things as they come up, one day at a time.