gan 6 - return to human be-ing

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Thanks, Edz. Your journey and patience with everything has been so inspiring actually. I always had visions of you just plugging away, mulling over "the thing" yes, but always ever so slowly heading toward your goals. Observing your humour was a turning point for me. Well more accurately your's, Jim's, and that stinking mooooose....were a turning point for me.

One of the things that's been really interesting to me is realising how introverted I am. I'm not the classic "prefers to stay at home and read a book" introvert so didn't identify with that classic example. Actually, I'm pretty outgoing and enjoy bouncing around ideas with other people rather than being left to my own devices. But I'm not comfortable being the centre of attention (at least when the focus is me personally; I'm totally fine speaking in front of people on an area of my expertise). I prefer to get to know people over a coffee with groovy music in the background, rather than out at a big party with loud music in the foreground (concerts are another matter). This time alone has definitely helped me see my introverted tendencies in a new light. I realise I have a rich inner world going on upstairs. It probably explains why I was content to just dabble away on my computer or whatever, all the while H looked on and figured whatever I was up to wasn't much fun. Actually ambivert is probably the best term for me (discovered that one recently and I like it).

But...I think I need to make a bit more effort to open up about things, especially as I meet new people through my GAL endeavours.