Mighty, you feel how you do and thats ok. You are taking care of you. That's important. You matter.
You cant rush this along, M. You can hinder it some, though. You do that when you dont listen to your feelings and when you hold onto them for too long.
So, sit with them for awhile. Then when you are ready, let them wash over you. Eventually you will be able to let them go.
You arent there yet, but you are on your way.
I know its hard to get your mind around it still in a lot of ways. I do feel that learning to accept what happened goes a long way towards healing.
You will be ok, M. Believe that. Hold onto that. One day you will feel peace, my friend.
I wish I could tell you that it all goes away, but, that isnt honest. It heals over. The deep searing pain will be gone, but, there is a dull ache from time to time.
This is a huge thing to have happen. Life changing.
But I believe with all I have that this is how it is meant to happen for reasons we dont see when in the thick of it.
