I'm neck deep in house prep. I've been accepting help as much as possible and tonight bullied the kids into helping with the second worst room in the house. I'm anxious but hopeful that everything will be ready by Wednesday evening. Not to the standards I've had on previous houses, but what are you going to do?
It is hard not to be hating STBX as I work through all this. REALLY hard -- because every minute of it is down to him walking away. I haven't been posting or reading here partly because I'm trying to detach further from all that partly because I'm so busy. I want to be more than just the sad lady whose husband left her.
He's been pulling out a charm offensive lately, I'm not sure what that's about. Not helping one mite more, not spending any more time with the kids, but making a show of being friendly and accommodating when he does turn up. Complained that I won't allow him to be nice to me (as in, I'm not sufficiently responsive to his friendliness). None of this means anything; he just wants to look like a good guy.
I have posted a lot of pics of the kids on Facebook. D12 and S7 particularly have had a lot of accomplishments lately. We tried to call my MIL for Mother's Day but she didn't answer, so I had the kids make a video greeting for her and we texted it over. She answered a little while later and we had a bit of a text conversation. She complained that she hadn't seen enough of them and that they were growing up too quickly. (She hasn't seen them in almost a year). I said that when I have a home she'll be welcome any time. No response to that; she's as good an avoider as her son. I'm not sure his parents realize how he's been living since he left me.
Anyway, that's my news. Nothing to report here. I'm just trying to be a better person, a happier person who focuses on the good in my life. I am truly very well supported and grateful for so much. Including my friends here. I'm very, very tired and can't wait till the house is listed and I can go through things a tiny bit at a time and start culling and simplifying my belongings. For now I just want to make it so my house looks pretty enough for someone to buy it (and hopefully STBX will actually do some kind of settlement agreement).
Crossing my fingers...
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
