Also, last Thursday before she left town, she originated talking about the relationship in a way that she rarely if EVER does. Said she was talking to one of her girlfriends about it, who also went through marriage troubles, and her friend say they were close, but they caught it in time. W got teary and said that she didn't know if we did. I tried not to, but teared up as well, and said that I didn't either. But I had hope, and would have hope until the love ran out.

Then I went to individual counselling feeling rather upbeat. She still has feelings, obviously. She isn't shut down.

Today it seemed bleaker for sure, although the word "reconciliation" was mentioned by her, if only in the context of trying to see the road of divorce vs the road of reconciling, and she just can't see either one.

Ugh, I know I am thinking about what she is SAYING way too much. I know I need to detach. Obviously I am not. Arrgh.

Me 37,W37
D8,D5
T20 years, M13 years
BD-5/14
MC starts (continues)-9/14
EA discovered-10/14
Piecing(?)-11/14-5/14
"I just feel 'done'"-5/15
Trial S (I moved)-6/15/15