Trying to Follow DB & DR (3)

[Miman2]

Journaling:

Weekend went pretty well, all things considered.
I basically ignored those papers until today.
Did a bit of GALing, CoDA group Friday night, socialized at a new meetup group on Saturday, church followed by going to a meetup group I've been to once before on Sunday. Sunday evening was spend cooking up food for this week, laundry and a bit of Netflix binging.

I took my ring off saturday evening. I keep getting the feeling like it's falling off my finger and by instinct I go to push back up the ring that isn't there.

Some "lifestyle" friends tried to get me to get out of the house and hang out with them saturday night. It was nice for them to invite me but I can't see even hanging around that crowd anymore. I turned them down.

Had some business to take care of this morning then came to work and scanned in the papers so I can have a digital copy to send out to lawyers if they ask for them.

Feeling anxious now. Just having to deal with the papers again. I keep trying to put things out of my mind and I'm successful for a while and then things start creeping back in again.

There's a part of me that feels detached, she's made a choice and I have to live with it. There's a part of me that feels sad and mourns the relationship/marriage that is gone. There's a part of me that's fearful in having to deal with the rest of the process that's coming up.

Not a whole lot more I can do than to take one day at a time, I guess.