I will be as dark as I can but as polite as I can and cooperative as I can.
I just feel like no mater what I do, it is met with a massive ammount of ANGER and NEGATIVITY. It feels like her trying to exert her control over me and I have to just give up letting it bother me. No matter what she says or does, I won't take the bait. It really does feel like she goes out of her way to push my buttons and hurt me. I just don't get it.
She referred twice to some HR issue at work and asked me to keep the kids tonight after GS meeting. I said sure and did not ask about HR issue at her work, it's none of my business.
I called to speak to kids last night and we have a nice conversation, I thanked them again for the gifts and how good it was to see them. WW actually spoke to me on the phone and we went over some kid logistics. She mentioned the HR issue again and again I did not ask what's going on. I heard her yell at the kids "Be quiet, I've already asked you 4 times to be quiet".
Why is it so hard for me to break out of the mindset of "us". Thee is no "us" anymore. It's just "me" now.
I went to a new church Sunday and really liked it. I went by myself and prayed a long time for courage and strength and for God to be with me so I don't have to go through this alone.
Through church, I got some baseball tickets for Friday for me and kids and signed us up for a party in the park. I also ordered a bike rack for my car so I can haul around our 3 bikes. I got my daughter's bike repaired as well. I really want us to ride together as a family activity.
I bought my son's Boy Scout uniform and supplies and was talking to him about it Sunday during lunch. My WW said "Since when are you so into scouting". I said "I think it will be good for S9 and he will get to be with other boys his age." and left it at that. It's as if she is suspiscious of my motives. Oh well, nothing I can do about it.
Does GAL have to be for just me or is it family activity? I am viewing it as family activities but a few are for me only - music playing and exercise.
Thanks DB board as always for listening and guidance.
