Alpha Step At A Time #5

[alpha99]

I totally understand your reaction twinmom, particuarly if you have experienced something similar yourself. I've said before though, my attitude is specific to my W and not a general trend of mine to think I'm better than everyone else.

Some people (my W) are simply just not good parents.

If that comes across as being judgmental on my part, then I will just have to live with it looking that way. In the past my W has left the gas jet on after cooking, then put a cardboard box on top of the still on gas ring, and then went to bed, she's left the fridge open so our food went off, placed a fan with no cover over it next to the kid's cot when the kids were reaching out to it, walked out in front of cars when pushing a pram, left dishes to rot until food turned green in the microwave...I could go on and on and on. Sure, I'm not perfect, far from it, but I did put up with an awful lot from her over the years. I did that because I loved her. I don't love her anymore. She just simply didn't take her medication that would have resolved a lot of those issues. I think it just grates an awful lot that someone who is not very organised, is increasingly self centred, self, greedy etc etc is dictating things to me, when she can't think straight herself.

I don't think there's much of a point in my last few posts other than to vent a bit...so hopefully that's it for now. All of this is just strengthening my resolve to move forward in my life.

In a parallel world maybe all our problems could have been a catalyst for change for the better for her. I think it has been for me, as I've written about previously. Maybe she could have looked at herself, shown remorse for breaking up our family, for her actions, and set out on a path to become a better person. If anything it just feels like she's pulled the plug completely on the life we had and anything good about her is disappearing down the drain.