Hi G

I know in my case before I had counselling for both BD and for my depression I internalised *everything*. Took things and spun them in my head from every angle, worked out possible meanings good and bad and.....

..drove myself nuts.

In some ways Im probably a bit oversharing at times now but its so much less weight to carry around and I remember the days feeling like I was at the bottom of a well with the top being nailed shut and have no desire to go back there.

Not saying you have depression of course in my case that was the driver there but the internalising I can certainly relate to. You've seen my posts over the past 9 / 10 months and its only recently Ive been able to move away from digging and digging into w's communications, coincidently when my mood lightened as well. It's very difficult to resist I know especially when unexpected and I still catch myself doing it!

Keep going G you're doing so well, and congrats on the Gal and travel!

Cheers


M:44, W:46, S:10
M 13 years, T 15
BD:23/7/2014
W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014
My new place: 21/11/2014
W/S back to flat 22/11/2014
W coming closer, talking 4/2015
Piecing 5/2015
Moving in again 6/2015