Well. Just when I thought things were improving they have hit rock bottom.
You all know my backstory. Good marriage from 2001-2009. Depression for me from 2009-recent. Failed marriage counseling 2014. Wife did not have sex with me for 2.5 years leading up to me having a very short EA (slightly physical but no sex) in 2014.
W made it very clear this morning that she believes this is all my fault. That she was a good wife. That I don't deserve her or the kids. That I am lucky she allows me to see them. That she's not the one who cheated. That I have no idea what I put her through the last 6 years raising the children on her own. She said [censored] her giving me empathy. As far as she is concerned I could jump off a bridge.
But, ended the conversation with saying she will think possibly giving me a second chance and allow me time to continue to show her action.
I know that she has set aside money for a lawyer. She is hiding paperwork under the mattress of the bed at our house.
What does all of this mean? Is there any chance of success? Is this all my fault or is this simply her current reality?
I wouldn't wish what I am going through on anyone.
I'm looking for some insight from some of the veterans. Some of you who have been successful.
Is there any way in the world that I can be successful. She says she is going to give me time and she will think about it.
If anyone does believe I can be successful, what the heck do I do now?
