I know right now it seems impossible to believe, things will start to fall in place and improve. I am only speaking from my own recent experience. Keep being the best father you can be for your daughters. Keep encouraging them to have a relationship with their mother. Keep taking care of yourself and moving forward. Things may seem dark now, that you can handle no more. Just keep in mind there is light at the end of the tunnel.
When things were at their darkest last year for me I never thought it would improve. Like you, I kept fighting, pushing forward, being there for my daughters. Things slowly improved. One year later I have a job again. My daughters still have their issues, but come to me for help and advice. I am divorced. The final thing was on the one year anniversary of my exw suicide attempt. She apologized for all the drama she caused. She acknowledge that this has had an affect on the kids that she did not expect. That things did not turn out as she planned and hoped. That she is not happy right now.
We had our first real conversation about what happened and about us. She is now acknowledging things that I do and saying thank you. Baby steps are happening in terms of communicating and being on good terms. Things I never thought would happen again are.
So keep your head up. Stay positive. Keep fighting for your daughters and yourself. Life has a way of throwing curve balls to test you. Unexpectedly things will change.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"