Ripken - LRT with a WW and divorce filed #2

[Ripken8]

Bob - thanks! The night got easier, here's what happened:

-I came home and talked with ww about what she did with the boys while I was away, they went to the park and out for lunch.

-ww showed me some of the Mother's Day gifts our youngest made for her and thanked me for buying the locket from the boys for her. She said it was beautiful and she started to cry. I told her that when it comes to her being a mom, she's an amazing mom. I wished her a happy Mother's Day and told her I never question that. I can always appreciate her being a great mom to our kids and that part is easy.

-she told me she felt the same way about me as a dad. Said early on in our relationship, I wasn't always the best, but she's proud of how much I've grown and turned into an outstanding dad. She said I've really stepped it up and been there for our kids and she never wants me to question that. I told her I have doubts and questions about a lot of things and that comes up. She told me I shouldn't ever question that.

It was a great exchange and started to get a little sad because I missed seeing affection and happiness when she would look at me like she did tonite, even if it was in regards to us being co parents and nothing more.

We ended the night by watching a movie together with the boys. I enjoyed that and the boys did to. Now I'm second guessing if I just allowed her to cake eat.

I have no idea if it was a good thing because my anxiety needed a break and she was allowed to see and experience good, positive interactions with me or if it was bad because I was weak and had more friend interactions with her tonite and not neighborly.

I don't want to go back on my boundary and have her feel like we can be friends while she has an affair, like that's ok. But I can't keep telling her that (I haven't since I gave her the boundary) because she already knows.

The second guessing and over analyzing is tough.