Just reading through your thread Bob. Glad to see you're doing better today. I go thru these ups and downs constantly, and find myself saying "I can't do this anymore" quite often, just to keep at it. Whether it is words of encouragement here, reading a book or listening to a podcast I keep on trucking. It's hard and it [censored]...but it is making us all into better people.

I think it's good you can reflect and make the decision to keep going to meet-up but to stay away from the bar. It's important to keep getting out, it gets easier (I think!)

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since