Coming Home

[mleigh4]

Happy Mother's Day to all the amazing people on this board. I hope you were all able to have a nice day with your children.

H came over this morning. The last few visits, he has knocked at the front door. Not sure why, but I never say anything. This morning, he walked right in. Even more interesting to me... I was in my room getting dressed from my shower. I could hear him hugging S and playing with the dog. I figured I would give them their space for a few minutes. Then it got quiet and I could hear footsteps getting closer and he walked right into my room and bathroom, cat in his arms, to say hi. I just find it interesting he felt comfortable enough to do that since he is normally much more standoffish lately. The ongoing roller coaster I guess.

Breakfast was good, we had a nice time. He seemed comfortable and focused today. Before he left, we went over some stuff about S and this week, a birthday party next weekend for S to go to. I let H know I booked the cruise and reminded him I need a document signed and notarized to renew S's passport. H asked what the date was of our trip. I told him and added, as always, that he is welcome. It just came out, seemed like the right thing to say. He asked me to text him the dates, I told him all the info is in our joint email. Ball is in his court on that now.

I am reading a book by Laura Munson, "this is not the story you think it is" I am halfway through it, a great MLC story so far. She so gets it, explains the reasons why she lets him go and why she doesn't believe it is about her, but about him. She struggles and stumbles sometimes, but gets back on that path again. I just nod my head over and over and am so happy it makes sense to me because 20 months ago, it would not have! I feel like I have come a long way Still got work to do though, but in such a better frame of mind to do it.