Hi friends! Thanks for following along with me and commiserating!
I love what you said about the hot stove Karma, it is exactly like that. I avoided his social media for so long because I knew how much it pained me. Then something made me curious and I looked and it made me sick and annoyed. Lesson learned (for now).
He's taken to doing a strange thing. We share a love for food and dining experiences. He's started sending me links to his online reviews of restaurants on those websites which I think I can't mention by name but you know what I mean... And the reviews are clearly from his dates. For example "We shared a bottle of red wine and then we had the chicken and the fish. Both were good, and we had the chocolate souffle and the lemon cheesecake for dessert." We used to be really into these reviews so he's ostensibly sending them to me as a friendly gesture, he couches it as "you should really go to this new restaurant, check out my review".
Upon first read I am a bit irritated that he is on a date and going to a nice restaurant. Then I am uncomfortable reading in detail about what his date eats! It's just weird!
I can hear you all saying that I should tell him not to send them to me. Yes, I thought of that. But then I know he will turn it around and say that I am bitter and jealous. I'd rather he not have that satisfaction.
I feel I can handle reading them or just avoiding them instead of asking him not to share, but I find it VERY strange and I wonder why he is doing this? Is he so stupid that he thinks I want to read the details about his dates? Strange.
Mostly I do find myself a bit bitter but moving on.
One thing I will mention for those newbies out there is that I never cry over him anymore. I may still feel a bit anxious or upset but I don't feel that overwhelming sadness.
I'm trying to date, but I have to admit I am not exactly enthusiastic about it. I can't get too excited about most guys and tend to be nervous with those I do find interesting and attractive. And not nervous in the butterflies in the stomach way, more like "he will break my heart in a million pieces" way. Yuck. But I'm trying.
I never really talk about GAL on here, but that's because I mostly GAL like crazy and that's not really my problem. I go to lots of parties and social activities and meet lots of people. I could probably do more new activities that challenge me but I seem to be very busy lately. It's on my list though.
Hope all of you are doing well my friends! Hugs! Lisa B
