Winham, I'm so sorry you had a tough couple of days - that's really hard. It is still early days for you guys, so best to work on looking after yourself and balancing your emotions as best you can. I know how hard it is. I found that reading (self help books) and using meditation apps was helpful in the early stages. People on here seem to like the headspace app...
Your W isn't herself right now, and may not be for some time. And the tough part is you can't control that. So the best you can do is keep trying to shift your focus from her on to yourself and your own life and moving forward.
Take Care ((Winham))
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
