Winhamn intro - D in process, WW (2)

[Winhamn]

I've had an incredibly tough weekend. Remembering that the OM is in town Friday through Monday...

Friday afternoon our kids had an awards assembly at school. My wife shows up in all new clothes, head to toe, very obviously dressed for going out, showing as much cleavage as she ever has. She wore almost the exact same outfit 10 years ago when she had her ONS.

She didn't work that day, but did drop the youngest off at daycare.

She tries to talk to me several times about kids stuff and I can just barely keep myself from screaming and punching her.

I am having so much trouble focusing on anything but what my wife may be doing with her EA partner, and how she's throwing our marriage away, even though it was already out the door.

We had a fundraising event as a family on Saturday morning. I was sooooooo tense leading up to it. I actually thought she might bring OM. She shows up alone, thank god. I was wound tight the entire time. Several times she tries to talk to me about just regular old stuff, and again I have to show incredible restraint not to just unload on her.

Had a pretty fun day with the kids.

This morning she picked kids up and is going to the family friends house - which is one of her connections to the OM - mutual friends. They could hang out in this context and not seem out of place.

Anyway, I'm imagining the OM being there and playing with my kids.

This [censored]. I'm so tense. I'm so sad. I'm so paniced. This morning with the kids, I had no patience.

I had a great IC session Friday, really hopeful this IC is going to make a big difference for me. But I feel like Saturday and Sunday were HUGE steps backwards.

Tonight, she's going to drop the kids off then go back to where she is staying to return Monday around noon "for an appointment". You can imagine what I'm thinking.