Today I just want to stay away from him. Very hard to pretend today. I have avoided him all morning and enjoyed the time with my son. He just tracked me down asking me twice what I was doing (picking up the house) and then cornered me in the closet to attempt a hug and say "can't I wish you a happy Mother's Day"
Ugh. His fear of my angry side is definitely one of his reasons for not wanting to work on our R. Not yelling. Just not engaging him. That is when I think him moving out would be helpful. I wouldn't have to see him texting the OW. You want a divorced- then we don't have to play house.
I need to get better at the game of pretending. In the good moments I am incredibly hopeful because of what he has been doing. We continue counseling to learn focus on our parenting together but his story has changed from willing, to pointless, to co-parenting only, to working on our friendship. A month ago he decided he loved a coworker. He said that counseling made him realize how angry he was and that is why he thinks it can't be fixed. He also LOVES our therapist and just shared how much better he feels after seeing him.
Wish I had a fast forward button to jump forward 6 months. Xoxo
M:34 H:34 S:4 I love you's:2004 Married: 2008 BD: March 2015 EA revealed: May 2015
