So a few more details... found a great house -- a little more expensive than I wanted to pay for rent, but it really is a great house and will be so comfy for us... and comfy is important for the kids right now.
It is also very close to the kids' school -- which means it is close to our current home and where I work, so there are many "pluses" about this house. The only downside is that the family that owns it will be moving back in a few years, so we will eventually have to find something else.
My hope is that one of two things happen within the next couple of years -- 1) I reach a point where I can qualify for a home loan (should be fine once I have a longer salary history with the new job), or 2) W wakes up, realizes what a huge mistake she's made, and we start working on rebuilding...
Still a long way off from W waking up, so for now just focusing on making a comfortable home in a new place for me and the kids. And actually looking forward to having some physical and mental space away from W for a while so I can make more progress on my own personal changes.
Had a pretty good day today... I think W is happier now that we have a more firm timeframe for me to move out of the house. There was no monster today -- and she's been in monster mode pretty much non-stop for about a month now. I did get her a card for tomorrow -- wrote a really nice note in it a little while ago and then left it out for her to find in the kitchen. Just felt the need to say some things from my heart -- because really, despite everything going on between the two of us, I do not and never will ever regret making the choice to have children and build a family with her. She's just in a really dark place right now in her heart, mind, and soul -- but until she went to that dark place she was (and can be again) and amazing and wonderful woman, mother, wife, best friend, and so much more. I do not expect the card to spark any kind of "wake up" -- just wanted to let her know some of my thoughts and feelings... and to express a very sincere happy Mother's Day to her.
And on that note... I do wish all of the moms here a very happy Mother's Day tomorrow :-)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
