Feeling the need to post dear friends. House is so quiet without kids. That brings me to the ideas of being ok with solitude. I just have to make peace with it and continue to move forward.
I make these plans to do things on the weekends to keep me occupied but it feels as if I am running from myself. I have to learn to be ok with being alone. I used to fear being overwhelmed now I fear the stillness.
I will have to read up on this and talk to my friends about it. It just feels like there is no point - does anyone else feel that way?
Am I all alone out here? Of course the kids won't be with me for Mothers Day - another kick in the gut. Ahhh. I guess it's just another day.
Looking back as I have been doing lately so many signs that I was too oblivious to put together. I mean who works a 16 hour day regularly because of projects and who goes to work at 5:30 to get an early start on the day. She had an office job. Then when all the texting started it was due to work projects and the going out with friends after work were to relieve the stress of the day.
