WAH with one foot out the door and one in.

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Ugh, frustrated. Allowed H to draw me into an R conversation last night that got heated and that was totally unproductive. Just more of the same stuff that has already been said. Just lots of hurt and anger coming out on both sides. I should have STFU, but I could not stop myself. Part of it is because of having to put aside my needs and allowing resentment to build up. Anything recommendations on how to deal with aftermath of convo? Just ignore it and get back on the DB track. So worried I took huge step back last night.

The good news out of the convo is that H is seeing my changes, but not at a point to trust them yet. He even mentioned being happy sometimes to come home. The biggest hurdle is the fear he has of trusting me right now.

One if the things he did mention is that there are some days that I am not as engaged. These are days that I decided to pull back, LRT, and allow H to lead/initiate. He is seeing that as inconsistent. My response was that it was just based on my perception that he was not in mood to engage and I wanted to give him space Is there a better way I should have responded to this comment?

Please tell me having convos like this is not the end of the world. Need help on how to react/engage today to do damage control.