Hi all, I've started a new thread with a new user name. SunnyB is for Sunnybrook. I was previously a three-initialed poster and for some of you the first initial will now make sense.
I felt like I needed a new thread because I had been in the same place for a very long time and I feel like it's time to move on. I don't want to say I was "stuck" because I wasn't, I was just choosing to consolidate. So many things had happened in the past year, heck, in the past six months, and I just needed some time to coast and regroup. Plus, I felt physically awful a lot of those past six months, and I didn't have energy to deal with much else. But with my leg procedure a week ago I finally feel like that's all behind me.
I have recently expressed my dissatisfaction with NC and how I think that's affecting me and affecting H. The past few days I experimented with more contact, and I have to say I don't really feel any differently. I'm still frustrated by his lack of response, even when I ask a direct question about the house or kids.
Although I have immensely enjoyed the time off work, I feel like it's time to start exploring some opportunities in hopes of landing something at the end of the summer. I'd like a little more financial independence, that will help ease my frustrations with H. It's not him, he's paying for everything he always has and everything I ask for. I ordered new flooring yesterday and a new dryer today. It's just the idea that I can only pay for so much on my own without hitting joint funds, he has always made many multiples of what I made and every account is joint. And right now my income is zero. So I need a job.
I hope my tribe will make the connection and come to my new thread: gan, Vanilla, Maybell, Claire, RD, Jim, bdub, Underdog, labug, Zues, raliced, Ahoy, zew, Stacey, and anyone else that I've had a temporary mental lapse on.
