new here.... burned out.

[YBT]

I appreciate everyone's input. It's hard trying to look past my knee jerk emotional reaction to some of the words though.

I am trying not to be too hopeful but he is, of his own choice, on his way home from right now. It's not even dinner time! This is the second time this week he will be home before the kids go to bed, the earliest in at least a year, and the fact that it's twice this week. With no reason like an event or activity. I do believe he is trying in his own small way, as he sorts through things. He's been kind to me, even offering to come home super early next week bc I have to work and our oldest has a birthday party (the alternate is getting a babysitter and she misses the party). He hasn't been like this in years.

I trying to detach and GAL. I've decided to get back into painting bc I don't have to leave the house for that. I am no longer apologizing for when I work. I am going to start reading more. We are working out together now a few times a week. I do still pack his lunch though but I'm packing lunches for the kids so it's seriously no big thing to make one more sandwich. (I started this bc he kept making a point to tell me how his work buddy always brings in lunches that the fiancée packs)