My H will be busy relocating his business to a new city in the fall. He wants me to come with him, but that means leaving my job and my family behind. Not sure if I can do that. Not to mention, his friends and his video games always came before me and they always will.
I'm feeling rather numb the last few days. The pain of having lost him is gone, since we are (sorta) back together. The happiness of knowing that he wants our marriage to work has gone now too. I feel empty. There is so much uncertainty and so much work ahead of me. I have to get the house ready to sell. I'm still battling my chronic illness. I know my family will be upset with me that I don't want to buy another house and I'm not looking forward to hearing those lectures.
Sometimes I wonder if I truly want to be with my husband. Not to mention I still have to come to terms with how awful he was to me during the worst time of my illness. I think I need some space, but then he gets worried and insecure. Sigh!
Last edited by Diana45; 05/08/1508:48 PM.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
