Thanks Bob. That's a really good affirmation you have there.

I'll have to give it a try.

Its funny the way words work. Others might not understand how the word "devastation" doesn't even begin to explore the enormity of the disruption being in this position has brought to our mind, emotions, heart and very soul. If BD was bad, this ... this isn't just nuclear, it's like matter-antimatter annihilation. But some how "devastated" seems to get the point across.

I feel tested this afternoon. The sheriff asked that I drive myself to pick up my own divorce papers. All of a sudden I think of that laborious march He had to make to his own doom and feel as if I'm on the same path. A friend of mine said I should just "forget" and let the sheriff find me to serve me, since he's getting paid to do it anyway.

As vulgar as it sounds there have been "word porn" postings on imgur, FB, and pinrest that I've seen lately. Basically they're collections of powerful quotes, lines and poems that are able to spark pure emotions.

There are several I came across that have spoken volumes to me about how I feel about the W.

"Maybe we'll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart."

"And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you"

"I'd still die for you and I'm trying to figure out whether you mean that much to me or I mean that little to myself."

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow."


Me:33 W:34
T:13 M:8.5
D mentioned & S 2/13/15
"We can never get back together" 4/2/15
Visited & Mentioned she hasn't filed 4/20/15
"I want to have cats back" 5/4/15
Served D papers 5/8/15