Heavy, hang in there. I move out in two weeks and while there will be times going dark and dropping the rope will be tough and Lonley, it's gotta be better than being in the same place where she's actively pursuing the affair and every day choosing him over me/our family.
It gives both of us an opportunity to miss and reflect what we were, are and will be. Is that anything either of us want? Couldn't tell ya. However, as dark as it may seem, you always have us. Think of how far you've come and what you've learned.
Imagine what you'll be like 2-3 months from mow
M-33 W-33 S-11, S-8 M-11, T-14 BD - 12/26, Divorce Filing and admits to affair (her) 4/18 I moved out 5/23