Mornings seem to be the worst for me. Yesterday I was feeling good, when memories of H came to my mind, it felt like I was watching someone else, rather than feeling like my heart was breaking. When I saw the phone records, it wasn't as bad as it would've been a few weeks ago. I start to feel like I will be fine without him (I "know" I will be fine, but sometimes it doesn't feel that way). But then I wake up in the morning, alone in my bed and everything comes back. It's like I have to start all over again.

Anyway...GAL for the weekend, might grab dinner with a friend tonight or tomorrow night. Headed to the beach with a girlfriend tomorrow during the day. On Sunday going to drive a couple hours to see my mom and grandma for mother's day. Happy Friday!

Me:36 H: 29
T: 4 years
M: 2 years
No kids
In-house sep 10/4/14
H moved out 1/2/15
Talk of D 4/9/15

"She's standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more she can take" John Mayer