One other thing. I never stick to what I say, I always do the opposite. I said I would do this or whatever, and either I wouldn't do it, or I would do the opposite. Today I have managed to do what I said I would. I haven't caved into pressure. I've always felt weak, or unworthy in my life. I just thought I didn't matter, and no matter what I did, it was okay, because it was for me. It's so not true. If you don't stick to what you really are, you lose everything. I hope to gain that back, at least in the next few weeks.
