All the time, I see W every day so there's always something I notice that makes me think too much, which leads me to fall apart inside. Just today, she came home from work and took a nap. After she napped she came downstairs and started a conversation with me all about her new job and what shes been doing, very talkative. Its been more than a month since shes done this, why now again?
Then I get to thinking about the FB conversations I seen this week with her being physical with OM and how he choose the GF and they are done. Over-thinking things too much, I've been down this path before and it led to nothing.
I actually do feel that way also about the DB process. This last day in fact I've rethought a major aspect of how I view what W is going through, and the reality of this situation,and our life together before. Going to type that up later today. Basically goes into why I'm still stuck on her and some of the questions I just don't like asking myself.
We'll get there eventually, no one said this was easy, but its do-able. Our emotions might not be consistent day to day, but if you look at the bigger picture we are getting to a better place. Like the yo-yo going up the stairs.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
