I do know it's bad. We are in crisis. But I don't know how to pay for counselling if I'm not allowed to spend money. I need to step back and re examine with the beginners mind but I am so fired up anymore that all I do is cry instead.

He is making the tiniest baby steps. We talk now. We act more like roommates than strangers or enemies. But we are so so terribly far from where I want to be that I wonder if it's pointless.

Me:35 H:35
M:12 yrs
T:14 yrs
D-7
S-5
D-2 (almost)
ILYBNILWY 9/14
in limbo ever since