Do I just let her go? Reading Zelda's thread...just...I am that H. That horrible H that did those things to my W. How can I blame her for leaving me. She made her mistakes, yes, but there are so many things I wish I could take back. I don't understand how I could do those things...and this is the person that I love? How could I do those things...
She's back in TN now...and wanting to start school online and get a job again. The job scares me. It just ties her down more. Yes she can always quit...but should I be happy that she wants to work? Or should I be scared because it just ties her down to that place.
We havent talked much.. she just let me know she got in safely...Idk...
I don't know what to do about my own job. My career is on the fast track and I am being given alot of opportunities right now. But I don't want any of them. This job is a constant reminder of pain because of everything I did and sacrificed to get here. But I sacrificed my M to get here. I have about 1 month to decide if I want to take this next step in my career or if I want to get out and move on. I just don't know. I said I would do this job until it didnt make me happy anymore. And its not making me happy. I just don't know.
Maybe I should just let her go completely...set her free because Im the cause of all her pain.
ME: 28 W: 24 M: 2.5yrs T: 5yrs BD: 22 SEP 14 W Leaves: 5 OCT 14
