It just feels that I am always rejecting her - possible attempts of thawing. i guess I am feeling guilty that I don't miss any of the "signs" she might be ready to talk.
I am probably being overly dramatic here but Good Lord. Now I second guesss every interaction and how it is perceived by her.
But wait, I am supposed to have dropped the rope, which means no pursuit, which means, I do things for me, regardless of what she may/may not think about it or how she may or may not perceive it.
I realize I do a lot of mind reading and projecting. That is a bad habit I have to break.
My fear is that each time I say no thanks, we get further and further apart and the less chance we will ever have for any conection.
